There is a lot we can say about life.
We can talk about the wonders of being alive and we can talk about the struggles that make it such a challenge. We can talk about the connections that keep us going and we can talk about the relationships that fall apart. We can talk about the moments of pure joy and the times of deep despair. We can talk about the good and the bad and everything in between. We can talk about a lot. But, in the end, the most important fact about life is this: You never really know. You. Never. Really. Know. You think you do - but you don’t. You never really know how much someone is struggling. You never really know the internal battles that rage in their head. You never really know what keeps them awake almost every night. You never really know the awful things they may believe about themselves. You never really know how hard they might have to fight every single day just to keep going. You never really know the words they wish they could speak but that get caught in their throat. You never really know if that small act of kindness was the one thing that made their day. You never really know if your last conversation with them will be your last conversation with them ever. You never really know. Maybe today is a good day to make sure your people know how much they matter.
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Can I let you in on a secret about friendships in adulthood?
Sometimes they are really freaking hard. Like, really freaking hard. But so often the friends we have in our adult years are the only thing saving us from hitting rock bottom. The truth is that even the strongest friendship bonds are not forged in stone. No, just as life is ever changing, friendships will always ebb and flow. Sometimes your closest friends fade away into the background of your life. Sometimes background friends somehow become part of your inner circle. Sometimes brand new people enter your life and become the friends you never knew you needed. Sometimes your heart aches because it misses the friendships that used to be but are no more. No matter where you are in your adult friendship journey, don't overthink it and don't dwell in the past. Instead, hold on tight and ride the friendship wave. Welcome the ones that find their way to you. Send peace to the ones who fade away. Love the friends that are there right now. Illustration: Art to Remember I saw a meme the other day and the message was pretty basic--
If you can’t take a minute out of your day to say hi to me, then I’m not making time for you in my life. Period. The end. I get it, in theory. If life were black and white, all good or all bad, all happy or all sad, all easy or all hard, then it would make sense to apply that logic to a friendship. But, most of life happens within the gray—the space between black and white. And I am a gray friend. Sometimes I am a bad friend. Sometimes I am a good friend. Sometimes I forget to text back my friends. Sometimes I check in with them when it really counts. Sometimes I mean to reach out and say hi and then before I know it, I’m crawling into bed at the end of the day, my mind filled to the brim with all the things I didn’t get done. Sometimes I show up. Sometimes I decide deliberately to not reach out because it’s all I can do to keep the lid on my emotions from bubbling over. Sometimes I let that lid go and reach out anyways. Yes, I am a gray friend—but that doesn’t mean I don’t love the people in my life. It just means that sometimes life is more complicated than a simple meme, more complicated than bad or good, more complicated than right or wrong. Sometimes life just is weird and amazing, messy and wonderful, full of grief and full of joy. All of those things—all at the same time. And so, friendships can be all of those things too. Younger me didn’t get it—but older me gets it now. Now I try to give my friends some grace about living in the gray. Just because they don’t return a text or don’t reach out to say hi might not mean they don’t like me. It might mean they are too busy right now. It might mean they are struggling. It might mean they need to take a break from peopling. It might mean they forgot. It might mean one of the million of reasons that exist in the gray. So, I’ll keep on not keeping score and trying to give the important people the benefit of life’s gray spaces . . . And I’ll keep hoping people do the same for me. (Read this post on Facebook) Dear husband, we need to have a real conversation.
You are the first to admit that lately things have changed for you. Things that used to be simple for you suddenly feel impossible and require so much energy. Getting out of bed is hard. It feels so much better to stay in bed and avoid it all. Tackling household projects and chores just feels like too much. So, you ignore them. Taking care of yourself by eating healthy and exercising doesn’t sound appealing at all. But, boy, do chips and salsa, brownies, and sitting on the couch sound like comfort. Your new instinct to avoid the challenging things only makes you feel worse as your to-do list grows longer by the day. Everything annoys you — people, music, movies, work, weather. Everything for you feels extra heavy right now. You are overwhelmed, frustrated, and scared. I get it. Depression has been a constant companion in my life for so long. But this is new for you. Depression is a stranger in your own life— an unwelcome stranger. Depression robs you of your joy, your lightness, and your ability to fully experience your life. It also robs the people around you: people like your wife, your children, your friends, your coworkers, and your family. Depression eats away at who you are, leaving only a shadow of the man we all love— the man we still love. Maybe the stress of the pandemic has finally caught up to you. Maybe the challenges of aging have taken their toll on you. Maybe the struggles of parenting children have become overwhelming. Maybe depression has always been there but you’ve been able to cope with it and keep it at bay. Whatever the reason, depression has seeped into your life, causing you to change right before our eyes. You snap at me and the children. You are quieter than usual around your friends. You eat and sleep for comfort — turning inward instead of to those around you. Work tasks bog you down and by the end of your workday, you are completely empty. You have depression and that is OK. None of this is your fault. But, the most important thing to know about depression is that you can’t just ignore it when it finds its way into your life. Depression can be addressed and you can find your way back to the person you used to be. We want you back in our lives — the real you. We miss you and I know you miss yourself, too. It can be scary to reach out for help. Terrifying, actually. The fear of being judged, the guilt of needing support, and the worry that it won’t actually change anything for you can be overwhelming. But help for depression can be life-changing and life-affirming. Medication can help to bring balance and make things feel not so hard in your day-to-day life. Therapy can help you to learn ways to cope with depression. Talking about it with others can help you to see that you are not alone in this battle — lots of men face the same challenges. You are not weak or broken. You are not less of a man. You have nothing to be ashamed of for having depression. But, you can’t ignore it. You have to address it so that you can find happiness again. It’s time to reignite the spark that makes you who you are. It’s time to get back what depression has taken from you. You deserve to feel better. You can do this. We can do this together. This piece was originally published 02/10/2021 on His View From Home: https://hisviewfromhome.com/husband-is-depressed/ I’m a B-list friend.
I’m not a top tier or A-list friend. I’m not a best friend. I’m no one’s favorite person. Sure, I’m included sometimes, and I know my friends love me. But, the list of things a B-list friend isn’t included in is painfully long: Girl's night? Only if it's a group of five or more. Dinners with other couples? Only if it’s a birthday dinner where a room has been rented at a restaurant or function facility and the guest list is long. Weekends away? Only if it’s a really large group. Saturday night gatherings? Only if we happen to run into the host in the supermarket as they are picking up food for the event. Don’t get me wrong, my friends engage in small talk with me when we see each other in public. Occasionally I’m even included in a group text with a few of them, but it’s almost always a group text with a purpose like “Where is the basketball game for the boys tonight?” or “Do you know what time the fundraiser is this weekend?” Sometimes they reach out just to check in and they show up when in counts—like when I went through a breast cancer scare last year. But, then they disappear. These aren’t mean women. Not at all. They aren’t trying to hurt my feelings or deliberately exclude me. In fact, they often tell me I’m really “sweet” and “thoughtful” and “funny” and they are so “lucky” to have me in their lives. I’m just not in anyone’s inner circle. And it hurts. A lot. It’s not fun to be a B-list friend. When you are the B-list friend, it’s painful to watch a group of your friends walk into a restaurant without you as you drive by on your way home from work. It hurts to hear all about how much fun your friends had last weekend at yet another “Sunday Funday” without you. It’s uncomfortable to sit with your friends at a youth sporting event for our children and listen to them plan their weekend away at the beach—a weekend without you. I’ve tried to be the planner myself—inviting them over for girl’s nights, or to our house for barbeques, or out for dinner. They come, they laugh, they tell me how much they love me, they say, “We should do this more often,” and then they move on with their A-list friends and forget about me. I’ve tried to talk to some of them about it, trying to see if I have done or said something offensive or hurtful so I can make it better. But, talking about it almost always backfires into me being labeled “too sensitive” or they tell me I’m “imagining things.” They probably are right. I am too sensitive. I wish I could let all the exclusions roll off my back. I wish I could see their photos together on social media and not get a twinge of jealousy and sadness. I wish I could see them walk into school fundraisers together and not feel a pit of sadness in my stomach. I’ve explored what it could be about me that is just not fun to be around. I’m kind. I’m thoughtful. I reach out to others often to check in on them when I hear their parents are ill, they are going through medical testing, have vaguebooked on social media about challenges in their lives, or just to say hi. But no matter how much effort I put in, it’s never enough. I’m tired of being the B-list friend. I’ve tried hard enough. I’ve cried too many tears. I’ve let my feelings be hurt too many times. It’s time to recognize that I am on the A-list for plenty of people: my children, my husband, my family. I matter to enough people. Enough people love me. It’s time I love myself and accept my own worth. It’s time to stop measuring my value by how much effort my friends put into our relationship. Even if I’ll never be good enough, or funny enough, or whatever enough to make it into anyone else’s inner circle, if I take a step back and look inside my own life, I can see my own inner circle is pretty amazing. I am enough—even as a B-list friend. This piece was originally published 10/9/20 on Her View From Home: https://herviewfromhome.com/the-b-list-friend/ “There weren’t enough seats at the lunch table.” Even now, years later, the young man’s eyes filled with tears as he recounted that pivotal day in middle schoolwhen he was ousted from his friend group because there weren’t enough seats at the lunch table. Someone’s new friend wanted to sit with the young man’s group of friends that day and there weren’t enough seats for everyone. So, through a vote or perhaps just bad luck of arriving at the table last, he was shut out of the table and shut out of the friend group. Originally published on Her View From Home. Click HERE to read the full article. I’m a B-list friend.
I’m not a top tier or A-list friend. I’m not a best friend. I’m no one’s favorite person. Sure, I’m included sometimes, and I know my friends love me. But, the list of things a B-list friend isn’t included in is painfully long: Girl’s night? Only if it’s a group of five or more. Dinners with other couples? Only if it’s a birthday dinner where a room has been rented at a restaurant or function facility and the guest list is long. Weekends away? Only if it’s a really large group. Saturday night gatherings? Only if we happen to run into the host in the supermarket as they are picking up food for the event. Don’t get me wrong, my friends engage in small talk with me when we see each other in public. Occasionally I’m even included in a group text with a few of them, but it’s almost always a group text with a purpose like “Where is the basketball game for the boys tonight?” or “Do you know what time the fundraiser is this weekend?” Sometimes they reach out just to check in and they show up when in counts—like when I went through a breast cancer scare last year. But, then they disappear. These aren’t mean women. Not at all. They aren’t trying to hurt my feelings or deliberately exclude me. In fact, they often tell me I’m really “sweet” and “thoughtful” and “funny” and they are so “lucky” to have me in their lives. I’m just not in anyone’s inner circle. And it hurts. A lot. It’s not fun to be a B-list friend. Originally published on Her View From Home. Click HERE to read the full article. Get over yourself. Stop being so sensitive. Let it go. You’re too needy. Those were the message I received the other day before I had even left my bed.
Published on Her View From Home. Click HERE to read the full article. Here’s to the friends who accept me for who I am.
Here’s to the friends who don’t judge me - even when I probably should be judged. Here’s to the friends who reach out to me when I fall silent. Here’s to the friends who laugh with me about the silly things and cry with me over the painful things. Here’s to the friends who accept my flaws and embrace my uniqueness. Here’s to the friends who love my babies like they are their own. Here’s to the friends who see me, even when I don’t want to be seen. Here’s to the friends who show up, even when I am unbearable to be around. Here’s to the friends who teach me how to be a better person. Here’s to all the friends - past, present, and future - who add to the story of my life. Thank you for being you and letting me be me. Remember the early days of your relationship with your spouse?
Today, if you are like me, you and your partner are mere versions of your younger selves, focused now on things like:
The reason so many couples find themselves feeling distanced from each other at this stage of life is simple. We all have a tendency to put our romantic relationship on the back burner after marriage because we think all of the other needs and responsibilities are more pressing. The kids need you. Work needs you. Your aging parents need you. The youth sports teams needs you. Your friends need you. Your house needs you. Afterall, this is the person you are spending the rest of your life with so they will always be there beside you. It’s ok to put your relationship on the back burner right now. How exciting will it be to spend your golden years of retirement with them? What if you never get to enjoy those years? What if you make it to retirement but after spending decades focusing on others, you realize that you no longer know your partner. Worse yet, what if you realize that you no longer like each other? What if something terrible happens and you don’t get to make it to retirement age? Sure, putting things on the proverbial back burner can work for a little bit. But, what happens if you leave something on the actual back burner? Eventually it dries out, maybe burns, and becomes a failure. Marriages are the same. It’s time to take your relationship off the back burner and start nurturing it now, before it’s too late. Here are 9 ways to reconnect with your partner and put the focus back on your relationship without compromising your other responsibilities: 1. Date your partner I cannot stress enough the value of dating your partner. While you may not be able to afford to hire a babysitter for at least one night each month, you can certainly find a way to creatively date your partner. Maybe it means taking a day off from work during the day while kids are at school or at grandmas house so you can be alone. Maybe it means working out together at the gym while the kids are in the child care room. Maybe it means simply shutting off the tv, ignoring the dishes, and having a date at home after the kids go to bed. Maybe it means using your money to pay for a sitter and then having an inexpensive date while you walk around Target together. It doesn’t have to be fancy, romantic, or cost money. You just need to make time for the two of you. 2. Hold staff meetings You and your partner are essentially running a business. You’re managing a household and that inevitably means there are things like bills, repairs, and maintenance that need to be addressed. If you have children and/or pets, then you also have medical appointments and logistical considerations for others. Let’s not forget about things like laundry, meal prep, shopping, and cleaning. Would you ever expect a company to run effectively without having some type of formal and consistent check in? Marriages are the same. Schedule 30-minutes each week to check in with each other on the business aspects of your relationship. This can be a great time to compare calendars, identify breakdowns in communication, plan for next steps, and highlight accomplishments and sources of pride. You can also combine this with a date night — just make sure it’s only a portion of the date! 3. Don’t expect mind reading So often we fall into the trap of expecting our partner to know us so well that they know what we are thinking and what we need. That’s not fair to your partner or to you. Communicate your needs with your partner. If you come home expecting your partner to have started dinner but you never asked for that to happen, it’s not fair to then be angry or hurt that it didn’t happen. Don’t let missed opportunities for communicating your needs lead to built up resentment. 4. Learn your love language So often members of a couple feel as though their partner is not showing them love. In reality, though, they aren’t speaking their partner’s love language. My partner may bring me flowers and little gifts, thinking that I know it means he loves me. But, we have learned that Gift Giving is not one of my love languages. Instead, Acts of Service (things like unloading the dishwater or making a doctor’s appointment for the kids or taking out the trash) make me feel loved. Get on the same page with each other by reading Dr. Chapman’s book The 5 Love Languages: The Secret to Love that Lasts so you not only know how to recognize your partners expression of love for you but so that you can also more effectively show love to your partner. 5. Take vacations alone Once you’ve been able to make date nights or date days a priority, the next step is to find a way to take vacations together. This could be a big vacation like a few nights in the Caribbean or traveling through Europe or it could mean you rent an AirBnb or cheap hotel room the next town over for one night. The location doesn’t matter; what matters is that you have the opportunity to step out of your everyday life just the two of you and reconnect away from the normal routines. 6. Try new things together Remember what it was like going through all the firsts in your relationship? There is something exciting about experiencing something new with your partner and we lose that spark the longer we’ve been together. Consider taking up new hobbies or trying new things together. The options are limitless- golfing, dance lessons, hiking, reading a new book together, trying a new restaurant together. The actual thing you do doesn’t matter. The key is for it to be something new for both of you. 7. Do things that your partner enjoys It’s very rare that two members of a partnership enjoy all of the same things. Is there something that your partner enjoys that you find extremely boring? Find a way to try to do some of those things with your partner. Learn that video game they love to play. Go to the concert of the band they really like. Go to that Indian restaurant even though you don’t like that type of cuisine. Make them feel valued by showing an interest in the things that make them happy. 8. Physical connections Don’t wait for there to be a natural physical spark between the two of you. With kids and work and responsibilities and pressures and competing schedules, it’s very likely that by the time the two of you reach your bed at the end of the day, the last thing you have the energy for is sex. Those are exactly the times when you need to make a priority though. What would happen if the next time you found yourself with a fleeting thought of physical connection, you actually pursued it and put sleep or that pile of laundry off for a little bit longer? What kind of impact would it have on your relationship if your put physical connection a bit higher up on your list of priorities? 9. Lean into each other, not away When things get hard many couples lean away from each other. They complain and vent to their friends when their partner does something hurtful or irritating. They ignore opportunities to communicate directly with each other about concerns, instead leaving their relationship open to built up feelings of resentment and anger. Lean into each other during those difficult times. Have those challenging and uncomfortable conversations with each other. It’s what we do in almost all other aspects of our life, right? We have difficult conversations with our children, our friends, our coworkers, other parents on the sidelines at our kids games, and even strangers on social media. So, why won’t we do it with our partners? Is it maybe because we are leaving our relationship on the back burner, assuming we’ll have time to address it in the future? The time to strengthen your marriage is now and you can find ways to reconnect meaningfully with your partner without taking your attention away from the other important relationships in your life. Wouldn’t those younger versions of yourselves want you to make your marriage a priority now? CLICK HERE TO LISTEN TO THE CHANGING PERSPECTIVES PODCAST EPISODE ABOUT THIS TOPIC |
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