It’s your struggle bus captain checking in again.
This week I am 4 weeks post surgery and when the doctor told me the hormones would be awful for up to 4-8 weeks, he wasn’t lying.
Yesterday I had a mini panic attack because the football stadium seats felt too steep and I was afraid I would topple to my death.
Then I cried because my freshman’s football coach sent a text for everyone to meet for dinner and it felt so nice to see something so normal.
And then an hour later I was filled with so much rage that I wanted to find a total stranger that was trolling online and give her a piece of my mind.
Then I ate chocolate.
And cried some more.
And picked a fight with my husband.
And cried about what a terrible person I am and how my face is full of acne.
How many of you can relate to days like that?
The truth is - days like this can happen to all of us - even without crazy hormones.
Whenever we start to listen to all the negative thoughts in our head, it’s easy for all our good self-care practices to simply fade away.
They really don’t do us any good.
So, anyways, I’m here to say that sometimes some days and some weeks just don’t go the way you want them.
It’s ok. Let yourself feel your feelings.
Sometimes it’s really ok to cry and eat the chocolate and fantasize about what you want to say to the internet trolls.
But then take time to center yourself.
Remember who you are at your core.
Keep moving forward because you deserve the life you want.
And on the really hard days, don’t forget to pick your head up and look around. You aren’t the only one on the struggle bus.
There’s lots of us here with you - reach out when you need support.
Now, more than ever, we all need a little support to help get us through the rough spots. With all the pressures of life, it can be a challenge to find time to not only take care of yourself but also to truly understand who you even are anymore.